It's been nearly 5 weeks since I began my horrific diet, but the end is finally in sight.
This Friday I am due at the Hyatt Regency Hotel in Dallas to show a NYC modeling agent exactly what changes I've made to my body since our last meeting in the early spring. 
He wanted an additional 10 lbs. of muscle (which is impossible in less than 4 months without steroids), and I've only got 5-6 lbs. to give him as my low-fat, no-taste diet has stripped away part of my weight gain along with the fat.
If I had any energy I would jump for joy at the prospect of this ordeal being finished, but I'm also starting to realize that the results aren't worth the process that got me to this point.
My life has essentially been put on hold for the past month as I've turned down party invitations (can't drink alcohol or eat the party snacks), avoided eating out (why pay money for plain chicken breasts with brown rice), plotted my days around my food intake (a meal every 3 hours) and to top things off my sex drive could accurately be compared to a 3-toed sloth on tranquilizers. 
Is this any way to live?
I tend to doubt it, but it's too late to change at this point in the cycle, so I'll end this now because I've got some tuna and rice to choke down.
It's a sad commentary on life when you stop dreaming about sex and start dreaming about food.
-BDS
But you look STUNNING! I love it! Maybe you should keep it up. Maybe just a little alcohol... It's fun.
You do look good but it is certainly not worth it. Now don't overdue after you meet with the modeling agent this weekend. I know what happens to you (have seen it for myself) when you eat real food after only eating very clean (as usual forgot my password)
I think you look great. But be careful once you start eating. Your digestive system will take a hit.
Sex and food are closely related on the sensuality scale. Is it any wonder that when people talk of aphrodesiacs they speak of such things as chocolate, oysters, whipped cream, etc.
You have visited my blog.. so I thought I would check yours out- What an awesome sense of humor you have !!! I see your from Austin.. Does that mean your a UT fan ? Go Aggies !!!! Yes, Im an Aggie.. I wish they would win a damn football game.. But hey- The colors are nice at least.. You look great- but - dont forget- life is short-do what makes YOU feel good..
Devil - I appreciate the compliment, and I'll keep it up regardless of the outcome (just not to the extreme that I'm at right now)
Anonymous - I remember trying to make it through our personal training session after my last binge eating escape following a photo shoot and I've learned my lesson since then as nobody should visit KFC, Sonic & Papa Johns on the same day.
Sarcastic - The food-sex connection is somewhat valid, and who doesn't picture that scene from "9 1/2 Weeks" with Mickey Rourke and Kim Bassinger when you start to broach the subject.
D - I meant to have a no Aggies allowed message, but we're big-hearted and welcoming at 2 Dollar Productions, so thanks for the compliment and come back anytime. Gig 'em.
Heyy.. Yes, Hunter S. Thompson does rule the plant of Journalism :) & sorry if the post you read was... especially useless, because it was. It was my... er.. way of getting my.. lazy non-blogging ass blogging again. Hopefully the moderately interesting entries will turn up soon.
Hm.. regarding the diet, I know I personally could never do it. I love food. I am obsessed with food. Food is my friend.
You do look extremely fit, but yeah I don't know, I think the lack of energy isn't a good sign.
xox
Mahalo
Lack of energy is just a drain on everything, and I couldn't agree more about Dr. Thompson, who was one of reasons I went into journalism in the first place several years ago.
you know I think you look hot. I do look forward to you being a little less edgy and a little more frisky though :)
Is that photo phototshopped??
The shoulders look kinda funny, body looks hot but I'm wondering if this is a joke on your friends, haha
lol, ok well, give me some tips please!!!
I'm trying to get a better body myself!!
;0)
female here though!! So no big muscles!!
I thought you looked good before the makeover.
But congratulations... it must of taken incredible motivation and stamina. I applaud anyone that can stick to a diet and exercise regime. It's tough!
I used to be a ballet dancer, so I know the feeling you are going through. Fortunetely after 15 years of dancing, my body doesn't need much work. But I still find it hard to stay off the greasy food and beer now that I actually CAN have them!
Dreamlover - I have some firm opinions on what works (sans muscles) but I wouldn't wish this regime on my worst enemy (with the possible exception of Nancy Grace.)
Friday - Ballet is hard on the body from everything I've heard, and I think it's healthy to have some beer and greasy foods because they help make life worth living.
Oops! I didnt mean to imply that all friskiness had left the building. There is definitely some life left in you! And you are loads more fun than you will be moments after stuffing yourself with all the crap you have been craving. Then, you will truly be worthless as you moan and groan. Let this be a warning. May I suggest some tofu instead?
I don't care how much I diet, I will probably never learn to like Tofu.
And I certainly did exercise in addition to dieting as I lifted weights 5 days a week and did cardio 6 days a week during this time period.
It's been a blast . . .
i love your blog! thanks for commenting on mine!
i also love your occupation in your profile, although you look a lot different than Mel Brooks!
;D
Cassie D - I love Mel Brooks & his movies, but I'm glad I don't resemble him.
Colleen - It's obvious that you are on the payroll of some band of 3-toed sloths with immeninent destruction on their minds and someone needs to warn the authorities. I would be more worried, but sloths take so long to do ANYTHING that I'm in no particular hurry.